Can you not seek that which is illusive while know in doing so you are found? Your message arrives from a place of a higher self. Be grateful while not comparing it to something grander.

To diminish or sacrifice this status to an even grander self is the ego [to your core argument]looking…ever seeking affirmation and not the self simply seeking actualization. To reconcile with this conundrum is to be enlightened no matter the like or non-like individuals that surround you [external matters matter not…].

Thank you for your thoughts and especially the humility that it takes to be honest. I deeply respect the former while admire the latter.Keep on writing as the world [within and beyond] awaits.