The religion on a spectrum is not mean. It simply a series of precepts meant for controlling another. The controlled, the followers of such religion, are simply projecting off you you what has become of them. Small minds at work. Big religion at its best. The results create the likes of what you call an aftermath from the lies becoming known. Not the lie itself. Or attempt to control.

Your derivative is PTSD. A common occurrence when lies are exposed and the truth becomes known while in the midst you must deconstruct like the soldier returning from battle. You must go back to the antecedent to the derivative and stare for awhile. A long while. And then, after the wrangling with the new truth, the lie exposed, move on. And on, and on...into the good night. While be aware, those left behind at not happy. Nor ever will be. Nice is a mask. Mask for hiding the truth. Be aware, they... the small minds and their control factors await. Move on, and on for you have now learned your lesson about life. At least for now.

Thanks for your essay. It was honest. And courageous.